I have never been one to keep up with my resolutions. They seem so drastic and absolute. Resolutions always seem to make me feel more like an absolute failure.
So, at the beginning of every year I come up with things that I'd like to achieve: not lose weight but get healthy; I always seem to give my goal a positive twist, much like I do everything and everyone else that I encounter.
This year I've decided to share with you a few of the small goals I have given myself for '08. Of course, I have big goals, just like you do: work out 5 times a week; no soda; be an ambassador of something; see HCJ in concert once during the year; complete more of my book; find my birth parents.
Although, I think the small goals we set for ourselves are just as important. They teach us to live a little - to just let go and do things just a bit differently, which is more difficult the older we get.
So, here's my list of things I've either never done or haven't done in quite some time. Hold me to it, you wonderful blog subscribers:
1.To read The Grapes of Wrath (not sure how I missed that one)
2.Update my resume.
3.Make homemade sushi.
4.Go to a movie alone. (done. tonight. PS. I Love You)
5. Write one letter and mail it out once a month. (any electronic device not allowed)
6.Dress up for Halloween.(with a real costume)
7. Watch all of The Godfather movies.
8. Eat alone in a sit-down/waiter(ess) restaurant.
9.Complete one NY Times crossword puzzle.
10. Go an entire week without tv or computer privileges.
11. Play a game of pool with someone besides the computer.
12. Take a random trip somewhere I've never been.
And if you decide to make your own list, please remember to share it with me! :)
Sunday, December 30, 2007
No Regrets
Monday, December 17, 2007
Celebrating "Real" Life
On Thursday, Paul and I will celebrate our 8th wedding anniversary. I will tell you, first, how incredibly blessed I am to have him in my life. I know, without a doubt, that he will go above and beyond for me and the girls. That alone is such a testament of his love.
However, I will not paint the "perfect" picture with my words. We are what we are. A married couple like many couples out there. We are stressed, always out of money, trying to keep up with busy schedules, frustrated with each other when we don't see eye to eye, tired after long days at work, unmotivated to do chores, and are always trying to find ways to spend more time together without 2 little girls always running around squealing. More often than not, we've forgotten how blissful and romantic a relationship can be.
In church on Sunday, our teacher was teaching on complacency. One of the things he mentioned was how husbands and wives should keep God first and each other 2nd and kids 3rd. It was not the first time I've heard that statement. A telephone interview several years ago with author SQuire Rushnell seemed to relay that same idea. He said, "To have and to hold" means to hold each other up and to keep God in the middle at all times."
As a mom, it is incredibly difficult for me to "put my kids 3rd." But the truth of the matter, is that Paul and I have learned the hard way: if we do not carve out time for us, then we are no good for the girls or each other. Our relationship is what started our family and if we do not invest time to maintain and show each other how important we are to one another, we will crumble. I can, honestly, tell you that there was a time in our lives where we both didn't think we'd make it through. It took a great valley for us to reorganize our priorities.
I think in this day and age many people are always trying to have something better than the person next to them. Are we not on a constant basis judging ourselves? .....we need a better car....a bigger house......more clothes.......a better birthday party......a marriage like "theirs".....
There are even times that we think that all of those things will magically fix our problems or problematic relationships. However, after a few years of diving deep into our relationship and learning about each of our pasts, tendencies, likes, needs, and wants, I've learned that whatever issues I have will always be present no matter who I am with unless I actually take accountability and begin working on those issues head on. The same for Paul and as he and I have discussed - most likely the same for everyone. Nothing material can change your issues. Nothing material will ever love you back. Nothing material can ever bring you as much joy as you can have helping someone else. Nothing material can ever take the place of a person.
So, today I celebrate our real, raw marriage and remember all the things I love about Paul; all the things that I fell in love with and all the new things I've discovered:
He'd rather listen to slow, sad music than fast, crazy music.
He can always make fun of the newscasters/weathermen at the drop of a hat.
He enjoys the first 30 minutes with his girls most after he gets home from work.
His body jerks when he's falling asleep.
He can calm me or the girls with the sweep of one hand.
He'd rather have pie for his birthday than cake.
He hates eggs but loves French toast.
His favorite Christmas movie is It's a Wonderful Life.
He can debate any philosophical issue at 6 am, but has a difficult time talking about anything after 9 pm.
His mood is always based on the Cowboys' win/loss.
He can write poetry in a matter of minutes.
He will never, ever, ever eat any vegetable except tomatoes.
He always buys gum during every visit to the store.
He has many talents, gifts and strengths that he's not even yet began to see in himself.
Happy Anniversary, Paul. We've come a long way since that cold, snowy December night.
love,
your "sassy" girl
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Never-ending Love
I wish I had the words
To heal your broken spirit
I do not
What I have is a feeling
The kind that is unexplainable
And only known by those who've lost
As we have loved and lost
To lay those dreams and hopes to rest
is as painful as saying goodbye
I wish I had the words
To heal your broken heart
I do not
What I have is an outpouring
of Love for you all
A love that is only known by those who've lost
As we have lost and loved
My wish for you is to cherish and honor
And to never forget that love
tisha j. davenport (C) 2007
Choose, Trust, Do
Well, today has been an odd day for me. First thing this morning as I was driving to work, I continued to hear that little intuitive voice inside tell me "Tisha, take Friday off. You need it or you'll be stressed like always. Tisha, take Friday off. Tisha, take Friday off." My voice of reason and logic, which wins out most of the time said, "No. You need to be at school. You've already missed too much time in the past few weeks."
This time, however, my intuition won. Woot!
I'm taking Friday off and taking a personal day. I always get so stressed during December since we have so many things going on (my birthday, Maddie's birthday, our anniversary, Christmas) and throw in the mix a few other events and travel and I'm spent! We have a full schedule from now until December 29.
We've planned a surprise birthday party for Madison. We've invited 3 of her close friends. We're doing cupcakes and celebration at the mall food court and then taking them all ice skating. She has no idea! I'm so thrilled that we've all kept this secret from her for almost a month. I plan to use Friday to bake and decorate cupcakes, surprise her at school and eat lunch with her (something my schedule never allows) and I will also be catching up on my grading. (*tear*)
So, bottom line: I trusted my intutition. I think we should all do this more often. Listening to our voices within is something that is not heard by accident and shouldn't be pushed aside like yesterday's Britney Spears drama. I'm guilty of this, too, and I'm trying to be more intuitive and less logical and take more time for myself.
Moving on.....
I've been thinking a lot about my blogs and have decided that I only wait and post the "good stuff." I have been guessing that probably most of my "blog audience" must think one of the following: 1. I write for them 2. I have a "perfect" life
Unfortunately, neither of the above options are true. I have started writing more because I decided I would never reach the goal of writing a book unless I practiced the craft.
Secondly, I do not have a "perfect" life. Is there really any such thing? I honestly do not believe there is a "perfect _(insert any word here)__"( e.g. marriage, person, life, job, family). Would you really want me to let you in on all the not-so-perfect stuff? Trust me, there is not-so-perfect stuff. However, at a very young age I watched someone in my life recognize and acknowledge most often the negative side of things and people. At some random moment back then, I chose that for the rest of my life, no matter what was going on, I would always do my best to see the best in everything: in a situation, in another person, in myself.
Is it possible to have a perfect moment? Most definitely. We can all think back to a perfect moment. It seems there is less time for error with a moment. I think we all need to remember those perfect moments because our memory of those perfect moments always makes them more perfect. :)
Monday, December 10, 2007
A Freedom Writers Christmas Surprise
Have you ever had a time in your life when you just knew something was going to happen, but you didn't know how or when?
For me there have been many of those times including but not limited to graduating from college, my first teaching job, getting married, being in a book, meeting HCJ. Now your first thought may be "Yes, Tisha, we already know all this stuff. Move on."
What you don't know is that I believe this quote and live by it each day: "What we think, we become." - Joseph Campbell
I do believe that what we think, say or do will manifest into and become our lives and our legacy. So, each day I try to live life to the fullest, I try to take advantage of all the opportunities available, I try to do my best and leave a postive, lasting impression on everyone I meet or encounter. It's not always easy and there are days when I get frustrated and feel like giving up just like everyone else. There are many things I've tried that have failed, but I always get up and try again - a different way.
One of the things I've tried in the last few months was to enroll in a Freedom Writers Institute session. After watching the movie with Hilary Swank, I was inspired to become a better teacher and learn new techniques and where better to do that than in California? I filled out the paper work, wrote the essays, gathered recommendation letters, and sent my application to Long Beach, CA. Months have passed and I'd actually given up hope. I had the movie Tivo'd and recently deleted it because I was tired of feeling like I wasn't "good enough."
But tonight, on a whim, I decided to go check the mail. Something I do sporadically and should be more disciplined with each day. I found an extra key in our box and came to the premature conclusion that someone had sent Maddie an early birthday present. When I pulled out the envelope, I wasn't prepared for what I saw. I was holding a book The Freedom Writers Diary by Erin Gruwell. I've seen the book many times at Barnes and Noble, but never buy it because I always conclude - "I don't have time."
Inserted neatly into the book by one fold, was a letter:
Dear Tisha........Thank you so much for your interest.... Unfortunately, we regret to inform you that all of our sessions for 2007 are full. Your application will carry over for the 2008 sessions next year. As an appreciation for your support and dedication to the classroom, please find the enclosed personalized copy of The Freedom Writers Diary. Kindest Regards, Erin Gruwell
Inside the front cover: Dear Tisha, Teach one to teach another. Erin Gruwell
I was speechless! I had anticipated that my denied application would cause me to feel sad, depressed, not enough, and I would just stop trying to seek bigger and better things. On the contrary, my reaction was full of thanks, inspiration, and determination. Someone actually took the time (and Erin Gruwell, no less) to write in a book and send it to me. It is a reminder for me to not give up on my dreams, goals, and aspirations no matter my age, my place in life, or what others tell me.
So, you may leave here thinking, "It's just a book." But for me it is a reminder of this: "The only plan you should make in life, is the plan to be surprised." (Dan in Real Life - thanks, Tonya!)
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Christmas Lights Up The Season
My favorite thing about November and December (besides mine and Maddie's birthday, our anniversary, and Christmas) is the feeling I have for those 6-8 weeks. There is something cozy about the glow of the Christmas tree and decor, something soothing about the Christmas music playing in the stores and something friendly about (almost) everyone you meet.
A few of our traditions include peppermint bark candy, chocolate cherry fudge, fried turkey, chinese food on Christmas Eve with A Christmas Story, and always on December 1st Santa's Magic Elves arrive at our house and move around each night getting into mischief (taking the car for a spin, eating snacks, watching movies, playing cards, making snow angels out of the sugar). We started these traditions as a young family, but now that the girls are older they are the ones to remind me of what we're suppose to do and when.
This year we've added a few traditions to our holiday. One of those being loading up in the car, driving to Plano and driving around with what seems like the rest of the Plano/Frisco residents to look at lights. There is a particular housing development where every house has lights displayed. I've heard if they do not have lights, they pay a fine. (see links below for display and official site)
So, as we were driving along, I noticed that with it being in the 70's and 80's all cars were able to drive with their windows rolled down and kids hanging out the windows. Most of the kids were singing or yelling "Merry Christmas." Our girls were no exception. They giggled in delight as we drove slowly down the streets. Avery yelled "Oh my gosh! Is this were we're going?!" Maddie got so excited when she saw pink or purple lights. There were displays of nativity scenes, disney characters, Hanukkah, even trees that were made to look like candy canes. Every adult we passed: walking or driving, had smiles on their faces. People were out on their lawns waving and greeting all the neighborhood visitors.
That's when I realized something. Put an abundance of lights anywhere at anytime of year and people of all ages become kids again with that holiday delight, genuine cheer and heartfelt smiles. The lights seem to light up something in our hearts and spirits; a memory or a feeling.
So, if you haven't already - find a place you can drive or walk and take in the lights of the season. Then, have some hot chocolate or apple cider and cuddle up with those you love for a favorite holiday movie. (ours is Elf!)
Happy Holidays! Love to you all!
Official Website:
http://www.deerfieldplano.org/
WFAA video:
http://www.wfaa.com/video/wfaageneral-index.html?nvid=192368&shu=1
Holidays with Family
Happy Holidays!!
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Built Upon the Past
As the holidays approach, you may be preparing yourself to gather with family members you don't usually spend time visiting. You may even feel that you are choosing to meet more from a sense of obligation than celebration. But when we trust that we are always exactly where we need to be, we know that we have been placed in our families for some higher purpose: to help you learn certain lessons, or to give you the experiences necessary to overcome specific challenges. And when we feel we've moved away from situations that don't resemble us or the life we choose to live, it can seem frustrating to put ourselves back into an old scenario. But even a sense of obligation is a sign that you are still connected to your family, and for that alone it is worth investing yourself into making the most of any gathering.
Once surrounded by people from your past, you may find that you are feeling challenged by a sort of identity crisis. There is likely to be a gap between the person you know yourself to be now and how you are seen by those who knew you before.
Being in situations that we might not choose for ourselves allows us to see ourselves in a new light. The contrast helps us to see our own strengths and weaknesses, and to learn to accept others for theirs.
Part of the magic of family is the way in which it bonds diverse people together, allowing them to function as a complete unit. Who we are today has been built upon our past. If nothing else, rejoining with the family and friends who knew us in our earlier days allows us to recall where we came from so that we can appreciate all that we've been given.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
My Peace
A long time friend recently told me, " I love reading your blogs. Although I don't often comment on them. I do read them." She also added, "You just seem like you have your whole life planned out."
While I am flattered that someone besides me out there in the cyberworld reads my blogs, her comments made me start thinking a lot about our purpose here. Everyone has a "story" and I believe that we all are suppose to learn from each other's stories of struggles and triumphs.
Journal writing is something I started when my little brother died (1988). I was 11 and have done it ever since. It REALLY does help sort out all that emotion that you have after a huge loss or any big emotional rollercoaster. I believe that we are all trying to figure out the same thing: Why am I here? What is my purpose?
Well, first, let me tell you that even though it "looks" like I have it all together and planned, things don't go the way I want them to and just like everyone else I have had my fair share of struggles. The way that I've learned to deal with all the chaos around me is to find a way to find "my peace." I think if everyone could find their very own peace within, then world peace might actually be attainable. You know?
Well, maybe you don't know. I think that everyone has to find their own peace. It is different for all of us. For some, peace is writing or singing or acting. For others, peace within might come from hunting or hobbies or running or interactions with other people. For many, they have to come to terms with that one situation in their life that they let define them and to find peace is to heal those wounds.
A few of the things that I have found help me to have that inner peace that allows me to continue doing all that I do as a mom, wife, teacher, and friend are running, yoga, a quiet lunch alone, reading a chapter a day before bed, having a cup of hot chocolate or a glass of wine while making dinner, cranking up the radio and dancing around with the girls to silly dance music, sharing a dessert with Paul in hiding from the girls, listening to Christmas music early, doing something for someone unexpectedly, smiling for no reason, surrounding myself with people who have a positive energy that rubs off onto me.
In the busyness of our world today, it seems most difficult to find even a few minutes of peace and quiet, especially if you work long hours, have a family or young children, or just put everyone else before yourself. With the holidays approaching, we all seem to find ourselves busier and more rushed than ever. Truly, though, isn't the spirit of the holidays to deeply enjoy those definite moment of happiness; not the presents, food, or events - but the people that we share all of those things with.
So, my advice for some of you is to write, act, read, hunt, have dinner on the good china, have a cup of homemade hot chocolate, try something new, call that old friend, write a letter for someone special and save it for a special occasion, do something that you did as a kid, start a new tradition, sit in silence by yourself and just breathe - As often as possible, whenever possible, and as much as possible.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Letting Go of Understanding
I sign up for these little daily readings and the one below seemed to be just for me. Actually, I'm certain that you'll probably be able to relate in some way, also.
"All of us who seek to be conscious and aware regard our experiences as teachers, and we try to discern what lessons we are learning from the things that happen in our lives. Sometimes the lesson is very clear from the get-go, and other times we have to really search to understand the deeper meaning behind some event. While this search often yields results, there also comes a point in the search where what we really need to do is move forward. It is possible that we are not meant to know the deeper meaning of certain occurrences. Answers may come later in our lives, or they may come as a result of letting go, or they may never come. Sometimes we are just playing a necessary part in a process with a result larger than we can understand. It may have very little to do with us personally, and while that can be hard to understand, it can also free us from overthinking the matter."
Wow. There are several things/people in my life that I need to "let go" of and stop trying to "understand." I believe that as human beings, we often have such a curiousity to just know and understand as if we were entitled. Oftentimes, however, the situation isn't really for us to understand: sickness, illness, tragedy, death, loss, difficult relationships. If we were told "why" would we really be able to wrap our minds around it all or is it all too big for us to even fathom? I, personally, believe the latter and have decided to continue to work on the "let go" phase of my life.
Friday, October 19, 2007
A Nightmare before Halloween
I ask you this question: Is there anyone in your life that you have difficulty dealing with?
I have a particular person that I must see on a very regular basis that gets under my skin like no other. Here are the issues I have difficulty dealing with and some of the things I would like to say to this person:
1. Everything-revolves-around-"me" Syndrome. Seriously, does it? Just because someone is doing something in their lives that doesn't correspond with your thinking or viewpoints, doesn't mean they're "bad" and if it doesn't directly relate to you - how can you have a problem with it? If I do or say something that isn't exactly what you want to hear, then just move on.
2. Gossip is Overrated! I never once in my 31 years of living have encountered one instance where gossip made someone's life better. You don't have to have a piece of everything that is going on. Who cares if so-and-so is dating that person? Why is it your business if that family goes on vacation or not? Do you really have nothing better to do that to talk about everyone else? Deal with your own life for a change and leave other's to live without your input - especially if you do not even know them!
3. No matter what - life is bad. Really?! Well, you're breathing, aren't you? It cannot be all that bad. In addition, you have a nice home, car, and a great family. How can you sleepwalk through your life and not see that your passing by the greatest gifts ever given to you? Who cares if you have to work extra, be out late, or don't get something when you first expected it - be appreciative that you're even getting the chance to do that one thing.
4. I'm a Christian, but..... You should NEVER start a sentence with this. I'm just saying....... Your family isn't perfect. No family is perfect. Please stop acting so high and mighty and looking at others as if they are on a lower scale than you. Judgement does not make you better. And starting any sentence with this quote while talking to anyone actually makes you look more like an idiot.
5. I know you're ________. You don't know ***** about me! You don't even take the time to ask about anything that is going on in my life because you're so busy talking about your "misery" or your slighted opinions of other people's lives. Please stop telling me I'm _______. If you continue, I will continue to tell you "On the contrary, I am _____." :)
Note to my readers: Thanks for reading this. It isn't meant for any of you. I just needed a chance to vent and get my feelings typed out, so that I could move on. Having these feelings the past few weeks has weighed me down on so many levels. It's not that I wouldn't say these things to this person, but for now, saying them will get me in a big ball of inconvenience. Will I tell this person someday when the opportunity arises? Probably. :)
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Mourning and Never-ending Remembrance
While reading To Kill A Mockingbird this week with my sophomore advanced English classes, a certain quote stood out to me. "Children are children, but they can spot an evasion quicker than adults, and an evasion simply muddles them." - Atticus Finch
I'm very certain that this hold true in most every case. So, when I came home today after a rough day at work, I was not surprised byAvery's extra hugs. I tried to hide my emotion and just enjoy her company, but she sensed the inevitable - mom is sad.
It does not matter how many times I go through it, how many people it affects, how well prepared you think you are or how it happened. The pain is the same. It is what it is everytime. Pain is pain is pain. It does not matter how old you are or how much wiser you believe you are - death is still a very difficult, raw emotion to wrap your brain and heart around. The absence of a loved-one and, moreso, of a precious child, especially that of a vibrant student is a hard thing to swallow.
After a very emotional day at school, I realize that no matter what I say or what I do, I cannot take a person's pain away. I should know this from first-hand experience. Yet, the depths of my soul always urge me to do something to "help," even if it's just a hug or a prayer. The truth is that this day has been very difficult and I continue to struggle every minute with why. However, Kelsey was such a strong example to her peers, as well as to her teachers. She touched everyone's life without knowing the fullness of her touch. Her faith was strong and I know that her spirit is now able to be with all of those that loved her so very much.Here is a link to hear Kelsey's beautiful voice: http://www.purevolume.com/unanimouslove
Later on in the evening, here's what Avery said to me as we headed out the door to the park: "Don't let go of me, mom. Hold me tight." What an angel! This brought tears to my eyes and caused me to clench her tighter. She squealed in delight! Take time to give someone you love a big hug and when they pull away, if you feel the urge, tell them not to let go or to hold on a little tighter. You never know if that hug might be your very last with that special person. Those hugs may leave a lasting legacy.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
What is Motivation?
Wikipedia.com says that "motivation" is a reason or a set of reasons for engaging in a behavior. A few months ago my name was in a drawing to win tickets to a seminar called "Get Motivated!" Unfortunately, I did not win, but I was motivated to figure out a way to get to this seminar. I just had a feeling that I had to be there. So, I set out to see if my principal would consider taking a group of teachers to this seminar. Paul, once again, doubted the possibility of this, but I was determined. My principal surprisingly agreed! :)
So, yesterday at 6:30 AM five of us set out to get to the American Airlines Center for the Get Motivated seminar. Unsure of what to expect, we ended up with great seats, and were blown away by all of the speakers that stood before us:
Zig Ziglar, Gen. Colin Powell, Avery Johnson, Goldie Hawn, Tony Romo, Brian Tracy, Terry Fator (America's Got Talent), Steve Forbes and Phil Town, Keith Craft.
Some of these people were "once-in-a-lifetime" people. Gen. Colin Powell was the most articulate, motivating speaker I've ever heard. Terry Fator was incredibly talented and surpassed my initial expectation of him by far. I thought I would share some of what I learned yesterday with you here. Take what you will and apply it to your own daily life.
1. When investing in stocks - number one rule is don't lose money.
2. Don't be afraid to invest and know that you have the advantages over the stock brokers. You can buy/sell in seconds. It takes them weeks.
3. Think outside the box.
4. Do it a new way.
5. Break the mold.
6. The message you send is not always the message received.
7. Change is a given, growth is a choice.
8. Be a leader by passion and inspiration. You'll know you're a good leader if troops follow you out of curiosity.
9. Where are you going in your life? Vote yourself off of Someday Isle (Someday I"ll write that book, someday I'll paint that room).
10. Just as you eat healthy food for your body, you must also feed your mind and spirit with healthy positive statements. "I am important."
11. How important you feel you are determines everything in your life.
12. If you do what other successful people do and do it over and over and over, you'll eventually get the same result.
13.Align yourself with the following people: those who believe in you, those who challenge you to be better, those who share your values.
14. Create a wall or poster of gratitude. (include people that are responsible for making you strive to be better)
15. Elevate your thinking. Decide what you want. Don't worry about the details. Visualize it happening.
16. Make a victory list that reminds you of the things that made you the most confident.
17.Think---->Be------>Do----->Think---->Be------>Do----->Think---->Be------>Do-----> 18. Don't let fear motivate your life.
Originally published on September 26, 2007
Cowboys Anyone?
Most everyone who knows our family knows what an avid Cowboys fan Paul has always been. He tries to convince the girls to watch games with him every year, bribes them with candy, money, etc. They never can sit for an entire minute. :) You may also know that I continually give Paul a hard time about his love of the Cowboys. It's not that I don't like them at all - it's just that it's way too easy to get Paul upset over my unfanlike comments. One day I accidentally let it slip that the Cowboys "suck." I truly thought Avery's attention was diverted by the TV or the music, but to no avail she'd heard that phrase and has been known to shout it out when she sees the Cowboy uniform, the star logo or even during a commercial at the movie theatre. (talk about embarrasing!)
So, here's the scene. Yesterday, I decided to take the girls to the park so that they could run, scream and play. In turn, I was able to sit for a full hour w/out anyone asking me to be at their beck and call. Great trade off, if you ask me. A few families were there and then left. Then, a new family arrived. A woman, a girl and a boy. Avery was very friendly and wanted to befriend them right away. Madison was more hesitant. I immediately knew that there was something "special" about them. Instinct, I guess. So, we make small talk:
"Do you live here?"
"No."
"How long have you been in the area?"
"3 years"
"Where did you live before?"
"CA"
"What in the WORLD brought you to this place?"
"lol--my husband plays football."
I knew it! I so knew it! After living here for 7 years and meeting random semi-famous people, I'm always on gaurd for that type of random meeting. Deion Sanders lives a few miles away from here, Randy White lives here in Celina, this spring we ran into Dan Campbell at the local Super Target. (See the Cowboy pattern, here?)
Turns out, that the lady at the park was married to Omar Stoutmire. So we continue talking and she reminds me that he played for the Cowboys about 10 years ago. I state how I remember that and then Avery turns, looks at me, and shouts at the top of her lungs: THE COWBOYS SUCK!
Good thing Omar Stoutmire plays for the Washington Redskins now, right?
Shine On!
Madison had a dance recital this past June and the title of their song was Shine On. . . Although I didn't realize it then, I think back now how that song has such a great message for all of us. A message that Paul and I have been discussing for a few months now. No matter where we came from, what we've done, what people think they know of us or about us, we ALL have the ability to shine. Here are some things I've rediscovered or asked myself over the course of my life.Writing it down and seeing it in print helps it to resonate in my mind once more....
1. Be always conscious of the company you keep and in all ways.
2. That moment of greatest darkness may yet become your grandest gift.
3. Truth is often uncomfortable for those who wish to ignore it, but for those who seek it are not only comforted, but inspired.
4. Grief, Anger, Envy, Fear, and Love are all natural emotions. It's when people tell and teach you to repress them that they become problematic. (depression, rage, jealousy, panic, possessiveness)
5. What do you choose? If you choose to be happy, cause another to be happy. If you choose to be prosperous, cause another to prosper. If you choose more love in your life, cause another to have more love in theirs.
6. Experience is all knowing rather than all knowing is experience.
7. Is it possible for religion to take out the spirituality in a person?
8. What you resist persists.
9. Be a gift to everyone who enters your life, and to everyone whose life you enter.
10. It is not for you to judge the journey of another's soul. It is for you to decide who YOU are, not who another has been or has failed to be.
--originally posted on August 1, 2007
Music and Memories
"Music at its essence is what gives us memories. "<-- Stevie Wonder
If you've ever switched on the radio or been watching TV when that one song comes on that makes you jump out of your seat, you'll understand why I took the time to create this blog. "Do you remember this song?" Usually, whoever is sitting with you looks at you like you're crazy unless that same songs brings about a certain memory for them, as well. So, here are my 50 songs in no particular order. Each one has a certain memory of a certain time in my life and possibly a memory of a special person, also. Each one was chosen with meaning and purpose. Each one got me through a particular time in my life. Each one causes me to jump out of my seat, smile and express gratitude for that song being a part of me. I willingly will tell why I chose any song, if you are curious enough to ask. Memories….in the corner of my mind……
1. Holly Dunn - Daddy's Hands
2. Dan Seals - One Friend
3. Ricky Skaggs - Honey Open that Door
4. Jim Reeves - I Love You Because
5. Charlie Pride - Roll On Mississippi
6. Chris Ledeux - Look At You girl
7. Ray Charles - 7 Spanish Angels
8. Red Sovine -Teddy Bear
9. George Strait - Baby Blue
10. Rusted Root - On My Way
11. Dolly Parton - Coat of Many Colors
12. Keith Whitley - Don't Close Your Eyes
13. Debbie Gibson - Lost In Your Eyes
14. Tiffany - I Saw Him Standing There<
15. NKOTB - Please Don't Go Girl
16. Marky Mark - Good Vibrations
17. John Anderson - Seminole Wind
18. He - instrumental version
19. Bad English - Just to See You Smile
20. Earl Thomas Conley - What I'd Say
21. Harry Connick, Jr - A Nightengale Sang in Berkley Square
22. B.J. Thomas - What's Forever For
23. Cranberries - Linger
24. Clay Walker - Hypnotize the Moon
25. Pirates of the Mississippi - Fighting for You
26. Alicia Keys - No One
27. Bryan Adams -When You Love Someone
28. Michael W. Smith/Jim Brickman - Love of My Life
29. REM - At My Most Beautiful
30. Lee Ann Womack - I Hope You Dance
31. Tim McGraw - Just to See You Smile
32. Van Morrison - Into the Mystic
33. Ernest Tubb- The Wings of a Dove
34. Nitty Gritty Dirt Band - Fishin' in the Dark
35. Eddie Rabbitt - I Love A Rainy Night
36. Willie Nelson - Always on My Mind
37. Billy Joel - And So It Goes
38. Reba McIntyre - Whoever's in New England
39. Lorri Morgan - Something in Red
40. Sarah McLaclan - I Will Remember You
41. Thousand Foot Krutch - Breath You In
42. Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over the Rainbow
43. Kate Bush - This Woman's Work
44. Audio Adrenaline - Goodbye
45. Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
46. Michael W. Smith - Place in this World
47. Kelly Clarkson - Because of You
48. Switchfoot - I Dare You To Move
49. David Crowder Band - No One Like You
50. Only Grace - Matthew West
--originally posted on July 15, 2007
Today's Thoughts
1. Thought is pure energy. Every thought you have, have ever had, and ever will have is creative. The energy of your thought never ever dies. Ever. It leaves your being and heads out into the universe, extending forever. A thought is forever.
2. There are no coincidences in the universe.
3. But watch. Listen. The words to the next song you hear. The information in the next article you read. The story line of the next movie you watch. The chance utterance of the next person you meet. Or the whisper of the next river, the next ocean, the next breeze that caresses your ear— I will speak to you if you will listen.
4. You are therefore in the process of experiencing yourself by creating yourself anew in every single moment. Life is a creation, not a discovery.
5. The most difficult thing for people to do is hear their own soul.
6. You cannot resist something to which you grant no reality. The act of resisting a thing is the act of granting it life. When you resist an energy, you place it there. The more you resist, the more you make it real—whatever it is you are resisting.
7.The purpose of a relationship is to decide what part of yourself you'd like to see "show up," not what part of another you can capture and hold.
8. I have always been there - in all ways.
9. Try not to confuse longevity with a job well done.
10. Know and understand that there will be challenges and difficult times. Don't try to avoid them. Welcome them. Gratefully.
. True Masters are those who have chosen to make a life, rather than a living.
12. Worry is just about the worst form of mental activity there is—next to hate, which is deeply self destructive. Worry is pointless. It is wasted mental energy.
13. You can choose to be a person who has resulted simply from what has happened, or from what you've chosen to be and do about what has happened.
14. If you want abundance make abundance possible for another.
15. You should spend less time thinking what others think of you and more time thinking about who you are and what you are doing.
--originally posted on July 9, 2007
What Takes You Back?
I was surfing the net this afternoon while the girls were resting and came across a message board where people were posting what their favorite cartoon was/is, so I thought I'd dedicate a blog to that topic today.
Here are a few of my personal favorites at the moment (and only b/c I have kids...what's your excuse?
)
Dora the Explorer (why didn't they teach us Spanish when we were little kids...I'd be way better off for it now)
The Wonder Pets (the phone, the phone is ringing...the phone, i'll be right there)
Jack's Big Music Show (cool tunes for kids and adults...if you're open minded)
The Upside Down Show (2 crazy guys being silly all over the place...holds kids' attention and is the next best thing if you can't have a manny(google it).
But then I started thinking back to Saturdays when I was a kid. You know, the only time that cartoons were on and early in the morning, at that. If you slept in, you missed all the good ones. Here are some I'm sure you remember:
The California Raisins
Care Bears
DuckTales
Fat Albert and the Cosby Kids
Fraggle Rock
The Littles
Pound Puppies
Rainbow Bright
Schoolhouse Rock (plug for author SQuire Rushnell (google him, too!)
Smurfs
Strawberry Shortcake
Super friends
Now, it's your turn....what cartoon did you wake up at the crack of dawn for?
--originally posted on June 19, 2007
Don't Stop Believing
More radom thoughts I've been thinking this week......
1. How can there be so many different versions of the color white? We painted our kitchen and it looks amazingly better. I can't believe the transformation. We still have to finish up one wall and the ceiling and get our new dining table, but it is now a room that I actually WANT to be in instead of one I despise. Wanna come over for dinner? 
2. Why *is* everyone so upset about the Sopranos finale? Final scene thoughts: Paul yelled at me b/c he thought I changed the channel. ..emo&:lol:-->
..endemo--> At first I was mad. How could they just end it like that? But then, I started thinking about Bobby and Tony's discussion - you never see it coming. Makes sense. Then, I thought 'Chase really is brilliant.' He's always left his audience wanting more. He has never given them exactly what they wanted. Using any of the theories that the audience had would be too easy (T going to jail, T getting shot, tragic family ending). The finale was not any different. It was sort of like the audience got "hit." No one saw it coming.
The last thing I took from the finale was that they really played into the episode title "Made in America." At the end of the day, no matter what was going on (depression, anxiety, marital problems, careers, parenting, or Tony's "business"), the Sopranos were still an example of an American family. They ended the show in a diner eating onion rings and made sure we all saw the guy with the USA baseball cap on several times.
I would like to think that nothing big happened except that we were just severed from being a part of their lives anymore.
3. How can I like running now, at 30, when I hated it so much when I was younger? I actually *like* going. It gives me a time to meditate and focus. IT makes me feel stronger, energetic and happier. I've also included a weight workout and love it so much that I could dedicate a room in my house as a "workout" room and actually would use it. However, I'm not a big fan of the treadmill. I can't do it like other people. I have to feel like I'm "getting somewhere." There's something so rejuvinating about being outside for me.
4. ok. you knew i'd get to it. Paris. Why are we surprised? She's been acting as though she's entitled since she's been in the limelight. Society and the media continues to feed her ego by giving us never ending updates on her life. I cannot think of one positive thing that she's done using her stature. (correct me if I'm wrong) Personally, as a mom, I do not want her to be anywhere near my daughters (on tv or in person). Nor do I want anyone who chooses her as their "hero" or "rolemodel" to be around my girls. In this day and age, women should feel empowered by something other than their looks or their parent's money. Go out and DO something to better the world and then we'll talk, Paris.
5. Is it just me or does TV absolutely suck during the summer months? I can't even waste my time on network TV anymore besides for the 5 minutes of weather I get each day. National Bingo Night, Next Best Thing, America's Got Talent, So You Think You Can Dance, American Inventor.....I can't take it. Ok, so tell me if you're getting sucked into them and why? I might reconsider with your recommendation. As for now, I think I might open myself up and give Last Comic Standing a chance. I don't have high hopes, though. 
--originally posted on June 12, 2007
What are your dreams?
It's been awhile since I've blessed you all with a blog. 
Simply b/c I have been in a deep Harry depression. For those of you that don't know...this just means that to follow up on my HCJ blog is difficult. What can beat the blog I wrote about a dream coming true? Well, I've got the answer now----new dreams! ;)
Have I told you that I wanted to write a book? I've started several times, but never seem to be disciplined enough to really put my whole heart and soul in it. I also always seem to talk myself into the fact that no one would read the book much less publish it. Though, now my thoughts are really just being disciplined in finding the time to write.
Have I told you I want to go back to school? I would like to get my masters and become certified to be a teen counselor. It was something I always thought I could do, but teaching was really my first passion. Now that I've had several years experience with teens, I feel comfortable enough to possibly pursue this in the future.
Have I told you that I would also like to be certified to be a fitness instructor or trainer? Those that knew me in HS are probably laughing on the floor now 
, but after I had Madison I really became serious about working out and making a life change to be healthier. Now I love running and working out. Something about it is meditating for me and helps me focus and feel stronger - emotionally, spritually, and physically. I would like to run more 5K's and a marathon before I die.
Have I told you I would like to move to NY? The thought of this is so exciting to me. To just pick up and move somewhere new with new challenges, new people and new opportunities. When the girls get older and are in college or have families of their own, Paul and I would like to do this.
Have I told you I would like to attend a teaching workshop in CA called Freedom Writers? I'm sure many of you saw the movie, as did I. I think it was be a great experience. As a teacher, I love to gain different insight and perspectives on teaching methods. Many times I feel that my methods aren't truly understood b/c I don't do anything "textbook." Anyway...I'm going to be disciplined enough to fill out the application and send in my recommendation letter by the end of this week. Make me accountable!!!
Here is a list of dreams that have come true for me:
go to college ( I was the first one, ya know?)
become a teacher ( in a town other than my hometown)
teach HS
be more skilled than my teachers thought I could be
being the subject in someone else's book
meeting HCJ 
I firmly believe and tell my students and my own children that dreaming is the key to living. People will laugh at your dreams; they'll make fun of you for them; they'll tell you that you cannot pursue them much less reach them; they'll try to get you to see the "reality" of them.
Above all else, remember...."Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determindation, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe." (Gail Devers)
What dreams have come true for you? (yes, this means I want you to share them here. now.)
--originally posted on June 12, 2007
Harry Connick Jr: amazing musician, entertainer, and person
My experience last night at the HCJ show is indescribable. It was AMAZING, AMAZING, AMAZING! We arrived early and got to our seats. Every seat in the venue was a great seat, no kidding. (But next time, we're gonna be front and center, baby!) Now, there were people who were complaining about their seats, but I was more than grateful to even be there. I could bore some of you and go through his entire playlist, but I won't. 
He played for a solid hour and 50 minutes with no intermission and only a few conversation breaks. My favorite part of the show was watching Maddie's face light up as she watched him sing and play. She could not believe it was really HIM! Her favorite part was his "Jambalaya" performance and the "booty shake" with Lucien. My favorite part was the encore and his playing "drums" on the piano......
After the show we went to the "top-secret" place for the Meet and Greet; although not that "top-secret." I was embarrassed by the girls that stood in front of us for a few short minutes. They couldn't have been over 20 and were all giddy about getting pictures with him and whatever else they were dreaming up. I sort of laughed to myself b/c it was obvious that they were fans of "Will & Grace" and had been fans all of about 5 minutes it seemed. Anyway.....I chuckled again when they decided to leave their spot in line in order to be LAST......some plan they came up with after they found out that they COULD NOT take pictures with him and only could have one item signed per person.
Anyhoo......We waited for about 45 minutes after the show and he finally came out! He looked great in his jeans and t-shirt. I was estatic and become suddenly calm and collected when we got closer. I asked him a few questions, to which he politely replied and I said, "Thank you. It was nice meeting you." I made eye contact and everything! 
He was very gracious and genuinely appreciative of his fans.
The best part of the M&G was the time he "spent" with Madison. She, personally, got to talk to him a few minutes. He told her "You sure are beautiful" (in that voice and accent that makes me melt!) She politely thanked him and then they carried on a conversation about kids stuff that ended with a high-five.
It was simply an AMAZING experience that I know Maddie and I will both treasure.
--originally posted on May 12, 2007
Happy Mother's Day
Even if you're not a mom, we can all be thankful for our own moms. No matter the past or present situation, our moms love each of us the best way that they know how. As I grow older and more significantly, after I became a mom, I begin to better understand the sacrifices that mom's give for their children. For my girls, I hope to teach them, guide them, and love them just as they need at the time and never try to overcompensate what I did or did not get.
This Mother's Day I acknowledge BOTH of my moms. Though, I do not know my birth mother, I remember what she did for me each and every day of my life, most especially on this Mother's Day. God willing maybe one day I'll get the chance to thank her for her decision and for loving me enough. And, though, I'm miles away from my adoptive mother, I'm thankful that she opened her heart up enough to have me in her life. So to everyone out there reading this: Happy Mother's Day!
Legacy of An Apdopted Child
Once there were two women who never knew each other.
One you do not remember, the other you call Mother.
Two different lives shaped to make you one.
One became your guiding star, the other became your sun.
Wanting to Adopt? Pregnant?
The first one gave you life, and the second taught you to live it.
The first gave you a need for love. The second was there to give it.
One gave you a nationality. The other gave you a name.
One gave you a talent. The other gave you aim.
One gave you emotions. The other calmed your fears.
One saw your first sweet smile. The other dried your tears.
One sought for you a home that she could not provide.
The other prayed for a child and her hope was not denied.
And now you ask me, through your tears,
the age-old question unanswered through the years.
Heredity or environment, which are you a product of?
Neither, my darling. Neither. Just two different kinds of Love.
© Author Unknown
--originally posted on May 11, 2007
5 Weekly Thoughts from Tisha aka Tish, Mrs. D, TD
1. Did you know that it only takes 3 business days to mail a video to the Harpo studios? ;)
2. Will the rain ever stop? Yes, I know we need it, but still, I'm just sayin'. My mint, cilantro, and rosemary - they're drowing at this very moment. :(
3. Avery's version of Happy Feet a.k.a. the "I'm a Penguin" video is my favorite laugh this week. :) Go check it out! I just uploaded it.
4. The Mavs. I'm speechless. Usually it's Paul who's writing about the Mav's woes. Today, I just wanna say: "Why? "
5. This week I have to go to the prom as a sponsor. If there was ever a reason to NOT be a teacher, this has to be it. (don't take this, personally---> you know who you are) I mean junior and senior year was bad enough....I now have to relive it every 4 years. *ginning and bearing it*
--originally posted on May 2, 2007
Do you want fries with that?
I'm not really banking on many of you reading this, but my dear husband told me at 12:00 am last night that he missed my weekly Thursday ramblings. If you needed some coffee break material. . .here ya go!
1. Thank God You're Here makes me laugh that deep laugh that's suppose to heal you.
2. As a teacher, most of the time I'm not sure I'm doing anyone any good. This week I'm pretty sure I did something right in the last 9 months.
3. Telling people that you're thankful for something they do/did really does make you feel good. Try it now! Heck, try telling 3 people this week!
4. I will meet Harry Connick, Jr and quite possibly Oprah. When? Who knows? How? I have no idea, but "thinking makes it so."
5. I discovered this week that there really is a text messaging competition. Up for grabs was $25, 000. I knew they'd think of this in due time. What will be next? (seriously, tell me your ideas)
--originally posted on April 27, 2007
Weekly Ramblings
1. What is the best Italian dish ever made?
2. Is birthday cake or wedding cake better? Why?
3. Should we teach The Bible in public schools? At what age? Should we also teach our children about other religious texts?
4. Do you check the Weather Channel at least once a week?
5. Who should we vote for on American Idol now that Sanjaya is finally gone?
--originally posted April 19, 2007
Top 5 Questions to Ponder this week....
1. As a parent, is loving a child more evident by enabling their habits or by pointing out their weaknesses and guiding them to more positive behaviors?
2. Why would they call it a "lisp" if people that have it cannot easily pronounce it?
3. Will James Gandolfini's character (Tony) on HBO's Soprano's die at the end of the show's 9 year stint? And if not him, then who?
4. What is your interpretation of this: "disappointments; his appointments"?
5. Easter, Valentine's Day, Halloween, or Christmas: Peeps are everywhere. Are you part of the "Peeps Fanclub?" Why?
--originally posted on April 11, 2007
5 thought provoking questions of the week...
1. Can you find reasons to be fascinated by a single blade of grass like Avery?
2. Can 2 people have a relationship that transcends all religious and political views?
3. Is Quentin Tarantino overrated?
4. If communication is so important, why do so many people avoid it?
5. I have to know….are YOU voting for Sanjaya? And if you aren't, WHO IS? 
--originally posted on April 5, 2007
Thought of the Day
You're inner conversations become your outer manifestations. Some people say "You are what you eat." I say "You are what you THINK." - Rev Run
So.....what are you thinking today?
--originally posted on April 2, 2007
Snack Idea
I just discovered something delicious that I wanted to share with all of you! I had not heard of it until listening to the radio the other day. Nutella! It is FABULOUS! I've had it on bread, bagels, and most deliciously with fresh strawberries (and wine, too). If you're local market has it, you HAVE to try it! ;)
(*usually found on the jelly and peanut butter isle)
--originally posted on March 30, 2007
Ticketmaster.com dialogue :)
If you STILL don't know who Harry Connick, Jr is, search for him on www.imdb.com or www.wikipedia.com - after a few minutes it'll all come back to you! ;)
Pre-sale tickets went on sale Friday and after a long drawn out drama with ticketmaster.com I finally got tickets. Maddie is going with me this time and we're selling the extra two to a co-worker and her husband. :) I'm just glad I don't have to wait until tomorrow when they go on sale to the public. :) The mere thought...ugh..... (*wink*). LOL!
Harry Connick Jr, Sleeping Beauty, and Pacifiers....What do they all have in common?
Nothing! I just thought I'd do a quick update and put them all on one blog
Avery's Addiction: Since a few of you have asked me how things are going - I thought I'd catch you up. Over spring break, we started cutting her paci a little each day. The day before we went back to school, she lost her purple paci and we thought it was over, but to no avail - we had to give her the green one. 2 weeks later, she's still got the green one close by. It looks horrid and is nothing short of the plastic handle, but her attachment to it is still present. She insists on having it for bed time and will ask to hold it when she's upset. My guess is by summer, she'll out grow it and find other things to fulfill that "need." :)
Theatre: We don't usually make a habit of going to theatre productions, mainly b/c the girls have been to young to sit through them. But my co-worker had tickets and couldn't attend so we were able to take the girls to the Dallas Children's Theatre production of Sleeping Beauty on Friday. It was, literally, in downtown Dallas and the girls enjoyed it so much! Avery was really into it and stayed on my lap for the entire show. We stayed to get the cast's autographs afterwards and enjoyed seeing all the tall skyscrapers up close. It was a fun night out minus the usual babysitter charge! ;)
Harry Connick, Jr: If you know me at all, then you know that I love, love, love Harry Connick, Jr. Thanks to my first official boyfriend, Nathanael Flores, for introducing me to such a talented artist. I've been listening to Harry since I was 16 years old. Living close to Lubbock, you'd think he'd have made his way there for a concert or two. (His wife is from Lubbock) Since moving to Dallas 7 years ago, he's been here once. Paul surprised me with tickets in Nov 2003. It was an amazing experience to hear him live after listening to his CD's over and over for so many years. He does the best version of Old Rugged Cross I've ever heard. Well, long story short.......by God's divine intervention, I scored some pretty good tickets on Friday morning (pre-sale only by "secret" code)!!!!! I am so psyched about going and cannot wait!!! If you're interested in my "dialogue" with the computer and ticketmaster.com I've posted it as a separate blog. :) And the countdown to the concert begins...... :)
--orginally posted on March 25, 2007
Scary Night
--orginally posted March 2, 2007
Most of you know Maddie was sick earlier in the week and that Avery was sick yesterday. We were up about every hour with her: fever, vomiting, etc.
We spent most of the earlier morning hours in the ER after getting there by ambulance. Avery's fever spiked in an extremely short amount of time and she had a febrile seizure. I immediately called 911 not knowing what exactly could be causing all of her symptoms.
This, by far, has been the scariest thing we've experienced with her or Madison. There should not be any long term effects of this seizure and was probably caused by the fever which is more than likely caused by a virul infection.
She should be fine. She's on an antibiotic now, but the dr. said it could very possibly be a viral infection. Her blood count checked out fine, her x-rays were okay, urine didn't show anything, so they're still testing her blood, just in case. Our main goal is to tackle the fever before it has a chance to spike again.
If any of you are parents and have had this happend before or have knowledge of this occurance, please message me. Now that she's finally asleep, I can think a little more clearly and wanted to talk to someone who had experienced this first hand.
All comments welcome!!!
The Purest Addiction
Well, here is accidental parenting at it's best. :) Avery is almost 21 months old ( 2 in April) and is what we like to call our " little addict." Her addiciton is worse than heroin and more satisfying that chocolate. She has been attached to her pacifier (pa-pac) since she was 3 months old. Our first mistake was believing that she would be as easy to parent as Madison. Madison was textbook - everything we did seemed to work. She was easy to reason with at an early age and could grasp ideas that we never thought possible. So, at 18 months, we cut the tip off the pacifier and said it broke and she moved on. No questions asked.
Avery is a different story. I write this after a full week sleepless nights (3-4 hours tops) and top-of-the-line continuous screaming. This truly is her comfort item, sort of like my Starbucks. :) We have read every book, message board and web site about weening a paci. We know all about the Pacifier Fairy, sending it up to heaven on a balloon for other babies (thanks, Stacy), cutting the tip, putting yucky stuff on it, shopping for a "big girl" present, introducing new security items, the walk in/walk out method, etc. We're tried most of it, only to have failed. She is a fighter and is not budging. Should we be surprised? Last night she begged for some Frank's Red Hot Sauce to dip her bread in.......and to our amazement she ate it all and asked for more!
Last night at 4 am, we gave in and gave her the infamous purple paci back. She finally went to sleep at 5...in our bed. During nap time, I took her paci out of her bed after she was asleep just to find her roaming around in her room for it 20 minutes later.....Mom and Dad 0, Avery 100 ---what is your prediction?
This has impacted our family so much that we're all stresse-out, tired crabby patties and are out of ideas. You may be laughing, but, seriously, until you've experienced this you have no idea! But we shall prevail! We're keeping on keeping on and hoping that before she's 2 she'll find something to substitute that security item with.
So what's your security item? And would you scream and stay awake until someone gave it back to you? :)
--orginally posted on January 6, 2007
Favorite New Present
For those of you that have naturally curly hair, you know what a pain it is. Yes, those of you that don't might think it would be fun, but, trust me - I've wished for a day when I could get out of the shower and let my hair dry naturally and have it look great. For a year, I've debated spending the amount of money I would need to for a really good, professional straightener. But after the last few months of spending the majority of my morning in the bathroom battling my hair, I decided to use the money I had saved and some of the money I got for Christmas and buy a CHI straightener. What an amazing thing! It only took me 10 minutes (versus 25 minutes with the Target Revlon) to straighten my hair and it looks better than it does after a salon visit. :) Silky, smooth and completely straight. wow! I wish I'd bought one a long time ago!!!
So, my advice for 2007? Get a good straightener or buy one for someone you love. :) hee hee!
--orginally posted on January 2, 2007
Sausa Anyone?
For some crazy reason our children delight in making up words of their own during this time we (universal) call the "terrible twos." Maddie's word was "toada." She used this word to refer to the indention right above one's lip. How observant at 2 years old? Realizing that there wasn't a descriptive word for that part of her body. :)
Now that Avery has entered this stage of her life, she has a word, too - sausa. Now for the normal adult this might be misinterepreted as "salsa." No chips needed for this! She's talking about wanting one of the following items: lotion, diaper cream, shampoo, conditioner, mousse, hair gel, pommade, chapstick or any other substance that goes on the body. At any given moment of the day, she scurries about on the lookout for "sausa." Anytime we're doing our hair - watch out! Bath time? She'll ask for it as long as it's visible.
This could be considered one of her first words. We remember it vivdly. We took her out of the bath and put her on her bed with her towel. As the diaper went on, she began saying it over and over. "sausa, sausa, sausa" Before we realized it, she had her entire hand deep into the Aquaphor container. Thus, the new word for 2006 - "Sausa!" Need any?
--orginally posted on December 9, 2006
Farewell
Could it really be that long ago that I started kindergarten? I remember it like it was yesterday. Or that long ago that I was 18 just wishing my life would "start?" Why didn't I just know how to be "still" in my life and enjoy it?
Join me as I say goodbye to my twenties - I just finished my last meal before joining that new age group - "30+." lol! Paul made me his famous fried peanut butter and jelly. Yum! Will definitely be running extra mileage for that meal.
As I enter that unknown thing called middle-age, I wonder what all the fuss is about. I mean, seriously, will a light shine down on me at exactly 1 pm? Probably not. Will I have 10 more wrinkles than I did today? Fat chance. Will I break down crying during my 5th period Multimedia class. No, sir.
I'm not depressed or even sad as I get older. I'm actually pretty excited. And I'm alive! With each wrinkle and each gray hair (yes..I have them, trust me), I know that I've lived my life to the fullest. I don't have many regrets, but even with the few I have, I know that I've learned great lessons and become wiser. I also know that I'll make mistakes. It's certain, but as long as I'm always trying to find the real reason God has me on this earth, I'm sure He will continue to guide me along.
My advice to those growing older like me?
1. Eat well. Not necessarily a lot, but eat when you're hungry; don't eat when you're not. Do not deprive yourself from the good stuff, but make an effort to eat the healthy stuff, too. (EVOO is a good start!)
2.Keep moving! Whether it's with your work, with your children, with your family, by yourself or with friends.......e, move, move. I don't have a disciplined work out routine, but I know that if I don't work out 3-5 times a week, I'm not at my best, physically or mentally. Music always helps, too!
3. Keep Perspective! Remember to not "sweat the small stuff." Remember that with every struggle and trial there is a lesson to be found. Be open to the possiblity of change and the fact that others may never decide to - no matter how much you wish. :)
4. Love - remember to love even those that you're not so fond of. :) ( - I work on this one everyday.) Surround yourself with the things and people that make you smile and genuinely happy. What would I do without the girls' giggles and smiles or without Paul's crazy "dad jokes?"
So....happy birthday to all those turning 30 this year. Make it a year to remember!
--orginally posted on December 4, 2006
Snow Day
Remember those days in high school when you wanted nothing more than for school to be cancelled so you wouldn't have to take that test or see that teacher that you wanted to avoid on a daily basis?
Well, for me I'm on the "other" end now and nothing has changed. I still find myself wishing for an unexpected day off during the winter months. I don't have to take the tests anymore, but give them; Now, there are both teachers and students that I'd rather not see at times. :)
Anytime you're in the metroplex and it snows, rains, sleets, etc, you can expect for most places to completely shut down. Safetly is always a concern. My theory is that people in the metroplex DO NOT know how to slow down no matter the weather conditions. :) These are the times I'm thankful for growing up in small W. Texas town with a dad that insisted that I learn how to drive in even the worse weather.
***Reminiscing Story***
December 13, 2000: Big ice storm. It took Paul 6 hours to get home, seriously. The trip is usually about 1 hour or less one way. My mom was visiting b/c I was nine months pregnant and in tears b/c I just KNEW Maddie had waited until the storm to make her appearance. A mother's instinct, I guess.....that night we were on our way to the hospital and the next day she was born! :) It took 1 1/2 hours to get to the hospital 30 minutes away!
***End of Reminiscing***
We've been home since 1:30 this afternoon and have a late start tomorrow. Hanging out in our pj's, watching Christmas movies and drinking hot chocolate.....this is the stuff that makes the best memories!
We love snow (aka ice) days, don't you?
--orginally posted November 30, 2006
Full of Thanks
As I reflect on the past year, I think about all that I'm thankful for and how humbled I am by all that I have.
Just this past weekend, Paul and I joined a new church family. It is such a great feeling to have an "anchor" in our lives. We are excited about the new opportunities that this church will give us as a family and excited about what we can give back. I signed up to volunteer in Avery's class twice a month. A huge committment for me b/c I love the worship service and I know I'll miss it. However, I know all the blessing from spending time with this fun age group! No matter where I am or what I"m doing there, I'm reminded where my focus should be and how I am not worthy of anything I have.
That brings me to my feeling of thankfulness today. As Thanksgiving approaches, I think of all that I really am thankful for right now. Yes, of course, all the big stuff: family, friends, house, car, food, breath, etc. But I"m thankful for all the small things, too, that are just as important in my life.
1. I'm thankful for myspace. Weird, I know, especially, coming from me. However, if I had not "joined the bandwagon" I would not have been able to reconnect with so many friends that I had remembered fondly. So . . that brings me to #2.
2. Reconnected relationships. To all of you that I've reconnected with: I'm thankful for being able to include you in my life now and share the joys and accomplishments, tears and frustrations with you again. I hope to be able to see you all again face to face. :) I've missed you!
3. Change. I am thankful for change. I always say "Change is the most constant thing in your life." Some people push it away, others embrace it. I usually welcome change into my life b/c I know that whatever comes my way, no matter how uncomfortable, will involve a lesson and a humbling experience that I can pass on to my students and children.
4. Reflection. I find it so important to find time to reflect on my life, my actions, my words, my past, my work, my mistakes. I know that doing this helps me to grow spiritually and mentally. Lately, I've reflected a lot on my past. I, honestly, do not remember a lot. Mainly the most painful stuff or the happiest moments. But as I reflect, I see how I can break certain cycles that exist in my family. I also see that with God I have strength to do more than I ever imagined.
5. Discipline. Discipline is hard and must come from within, which is what makes it hard - no one can make you be disciplined, you have to decide to put it inot action on your own. I have been working very hard on being disciplined with what I watch, listen to, and surround myself with on a minute-by-minute basis. A few weeks ago I decided to limited myself from TV: the news, entertainment news shows, my reality shows, basically, everything except for Oprah, Rachel Ray and Grey's Anatomy (not ready to let go of this one, yet.) I've also only been listening to a certain radio station or my own CD's and have worked on surrounding myself with those people at work that have positive attitudes. "Good stuff in, good stuff out." I've noticed that after a few weeks of doing this and being conscious of my surroundings I have been more positive, more faithful, more willing to be graceful, and more loving in my actions, words, and thoughts.
So, as this holiday season approaches, I continue to think of the small things that I'm thankful for and repetitively thank God for all of the things I'm not worthy of:
1. loving husband
2. my 2 beautiful girls
3. immediate and extended family
4. a job I love and enjoy
5. a house/ car
6. good health
7. church family
8. good friends---I mean the ones that stay by your side no matter what :)
9. good music---very healing at all times
10. life - it's good to be alive! :)
Happy Thanksgiving!
What are you thankful for this year?
-orginally posted on November 21, 2006
I DID IT!
After a lot of prayer, thought and consideration, I resigned as yearbook adviser today effective May 25, 2007. Met with my principal and gave him my official letter. I did not, initially, sign a contract that stated that my adviser job depended on my employment. However, he did tell me that I would possibly be teaching a few English classes next year. Not a problem; been there, done that. I'm also very open to the possibility of teaching with a different district if the opportunity arises. It's such an anxious feeling when you "let go" of something; a job, a loved one, a friend, etc. I also have feelings of "quitting." And I struggle with this because I never give up at anything, but in a sense, I feel I did with this. Even though I was sort of forced into the position, for 4 years producing the yearbook was my life. Working with those students, leading them to create an awesome book, teaching them customer service skills, design skills, marketing skills, and relationship skills. I cannot tell you the sweat, tears, and laughs that went into each of those 4 years. However, it definitely took time away from my other classes and students and most importantly my family. I never felt like I was giving anyone the best of me or had enough of myself to go around, especially at the end of the day. I love my work, but I love my family more. I am thankful for Paul for putting up with all the phone calls, extra hours, babysitting the girls, going to events, and listening to me vent each and every day. And so....here's to new challenges and more time with Paul, Madison and Avery!<
--orginally posted on November 16, 2006
Saturday Busy-ness
I'm still trying to learn this blog thing, so I thought I'd try it. . .
Does anyone else feel that even though it's the weekend, you're just as busy as during the week, if not more? We have dance class on Sat mornings and then have to add b-day parties and other events to the rest of our schedule for the day. It seems as though we barely have time to breathe before the next scheduled event. Ok, so it doesn't happen every weekend, but it seems that with the holidays we tend to have more stuff to do and not a lot of time to get it done.
Then, I turn around and it's Sunday night again.
--orginally posted on October 28, 2006
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